Semblance of
Three days; that's how long it takes to
cross the dunes to
Jesus, I couldn't sleep if I wanted to.
I think... I should be edgy,
my nerves should be so fried they're black as burnt toast. But I'm calm. And
still, I don't try to sleep. I chain smoke instead, slowly and steadily, and
watch the twin suns slide across the sky.
On the third day, we find a little shade
beneath an outcropping of rocks and rest there out of the heat like lizards. In
the distance, I can make out, just barely, a spike of polished metal like a
pillar of light on the horizon.
It's not just a trick of the heat.
It's the Babylon City Plant, largest one
still operational, they say. Beneath the town's streets, hundreds of miles of
piping and wires, a stainless steel network spreading out and out like a web to
thousands of buildings. The foundations were laid decades ago by men and women
who never lived to see their city flourish.
And because it did flourish, we applaud
their act of faith. A leap from the temple's highest tower,
or maybe just a long walk off a short pier.
There's a rustling from the back seat abruptly,
and a yawn. "Go back to sleep," I say, flicking my cigarette out the
open car door and into the sand. I've been savoring the smooth progression of
one smoke to another since we stopped here, like moments until death. "We
can't leave for at least another hour."
Marlowe sits up, scratching his nose idly
as he stifles another yawn against his palm. "Too
hot."
"Never stopped you
before."
He takes off his sunglasses - I see all
this in reverse in the rearview mirror - wipes them carefully on the frayed hem
of his shirt before putting them back on. And he shrugs, limp and lopsidedly,
like a marionette. "Besides, I don't feel like it."
"Well, don't expect me to entertain
you."
Another lazy shrug, and Marlowe leans
forward a little. I've left my pistol sitting on the dashboard, shimmering from
the heat, and even with the dark glasses I can tell that's what has got his
attention. I pick it up by the barrel, and even through my gloves I can feel
how hot it's gotten over the last few hours. "Let me see what you can do,
kid."
I offer him the gun, and he jumps a
little, glasses sliding down the bridge of his nose. He's blushing as he pushes
them back up. "What? Like, shooting?"
I roll my eyes. "No, I wanted you to
find three more just like it and show my how you juggle."
"Ahh, Miss
Dominique..." He takes the gun from me, holding it up before his face like
he expects it to grow legs at any moment and make a break for freedom. "I
don't know how to use this thing."
"Don't be cute, kid." My
patience is running thin as my stash of smokes right about now.
"I'm not cute. I've never even held
one of these before."
He's not kidding, I realize suddenly. I
can see by the way he curls his fingers around the pistol; carefully, like he
expects it to go off all on its own. So, let me get this straight...
"You're a hired gun without a gun?"
His lips curl a little, into a pout.
"Hey, I just haven't gotten around to that part yet, okay? I can do other
stuff..."
"Really?" It's not that I don't believe him. Even Midvalley has a few things going for him, and thoroughness
is one of them; he wouldn't have recruited this kid based on good intentions.
"Like what?"
"Well, I..." The leather
upholstery creaks as he leans closer, bracing his elbows on the backs of the
seats. "I know things before they happen. I can just tell..."
"You mean... you can see the
future?"
"Sometimes." I can't blame Marlowe for taking my
expression just then the wrong way. "Forget it," he mutters. "I
don't expect you to believe me."
I sigh; catching him by the jaw and
turning him back to face me before he can escape into the backseat. "Kid,
look, I've watched my boss take down a room full of armed men without lifting a
finger. Why the hell would I have trouble swallowing your story?"
"Yeah." He squirms a little. "Yeah, I
guess."
He's not used to talking about his
talents. Fine then, that makes two of us. And I hear myself say, "Show
me."
He blinks. "I... don't know, Ms.
Dominique. It doesn't always work the way I want it to, you know? I can't
always tell what I'm going to see."
"Show me," I say again,
"and I'll teach you how to use that." I nod to the gun; he's
forgotten about it by now, but it's still clenched tightly in his hand.
"Oh?" He glances down at the
pistol, turning it slightly so the sun catches on the barrel, splashing the
ceiling with light. His lower lip catches thoughtfully between his teeth.
"Okay. It's a deal."
When he looks back, his eyes are a little
bluer than they were before, or maybe that's just my imagination. He reaches
for me with one hand. "Umm, I'm not a pervert or anything, Ms. Dominique. Really. Sometimes it just helps me focus a little better,
okay?"
I nod once, suddenly feeling a little
foolish, though I can't quite pinpoint the reason. Maybe it's that I suddenly
can't imagine what I was ever hoping to learn from this. Even the manner of my
death won't be news to me now.
But his fingertips are already dusting the
hair from my temple, and he grins nervously. His eyes meet mine. Yes,
definitely bluer now, and his pupils have receded to
pinpoints at their centers, almost nonexistent. "Okay, here I go."
He falls silent, and I wait. I can't help
but be a little disappointed; I had expected it to feel like something,
expected there to be a bit of a show. But he just stares at me in silence, and
after a minute his eyes glaze over and he's not watching me anymore, he's
watching some spot a thousand miles beyond me.
"Hey, Kid." He doesn't move. Great. This is why I hate working with partners...
"Kid, are you awake" Hey! Mar-"
"Legato."
He speaks to suddenly, that I almost jump.
I look at him again, just to be sure, but his gaze is still unfocused. He's
still as out of it as a kid coming down off Novocain. "What the hell are
you talking about?" But I really don't really think he can hear me.
"You're standing on a ridge, sort of
a stone shelf cut into the face of a cliff. You know it well; you used to come
here a lot, but that was many years ago..." He pauses, the corner of his
mouth twisting upward. "You're thinking, you've been running full speed
and now you've finally hit a wall. You're thinking... the only thing you can do
is jump, but you're not sure if the fall will be enough to kill you..."
"Kid?" My voice sounds hollow, brittle as a
skeleton. It's not until then that I realize I've forgotten to breathe.
"What about Legato?"
"He's there too. He's been there...
longer than even you know. And you don't turn around, because you know he's
waiting for you to turn so you can see his eyes when he..."
"Marlowe!" And suddenly I'm
wheeling back, out of his reach. My ribs hit the steering wheel and the horn
coughs a long, steady note across the desert. Overhead, a vulture croaks out a
strangled response, and across from me, Marlowe blinks twice and shakes his
head.
"Oh, Ms. Dominique. Did I say something wrong?" He
smiles, embarrassed and apologetic like he just saw up my skirt or something.
"I told you, I can't really control what I'm gonna
see all the time?"
The back of my neck, the space between my shoulder blades are cold, damp with sweat?
"No. No, I'm fine." Those last few words - whatever he saw at the end
there - I just couldn't make myself listen, as though hearing it out would have
been the same thing as resigning myself to it.
"Ha, that's bullshit anyway, right?"
He looks at me seriously; I think it's the
first time I've ever seen him serious. "You think you can change the
future, Ms. Dominique..."
And I hesitate. I can feel heat just
beneath my left breast, a bruise already beginning to form where I struck the
steering wheel. It's a small pain compared to the clawing at the back of my
skull whenever I replay Marlowe's words. "Kid, I think there are a lot of
choices to be made before the future catches up with us."
He laughs softly, hiding it behind his
hand. "Okay, Ms. Dominique. That sounds fair to me."
I need a cigarette, something to do with
my hands to keep them from shaking. I grip the steering wheel tight, and that
seems to help a little. I can't keep still any longer, but it takes a few stabs
to get the car key into the ignition.
In the rearview mirror, Marlowe is looking
at me over the top of his sunglasses like I've just grown another arm.
"When we get into town, Kid," I hear myself say, "just stay
alert.”